Myths about Midwife

Well yesterday was my last midwife appointment, and it was sad to say goodbye. Aisia Salo was fantastic, and couldn't have asked for a better person to bring our daughter into this world.
Myths about midwives
1. Place of birth - my daughter was not born in a hippie van or in a barn. She was born in the hospital ( but one can choose to have a home birth)
2. Midwives are women from the outback - Midwives are highly educated people that require them to go threw and intense 4 year program.
3. Midwives aren't doctors - no they aren't but they have knowlege that are strictly for birth and taking care of baby. If they see a problem, they will send you to a doctor. They ARE your primary care giver, and take CARE of YOU and baby. Doctors have way to many things on their plate.
4.The best part of a midwife is that it was covered by the health care system.

to sleep or not to sleep, that is the question

The sleep issue is I think the one thing parents struggle with... oh and the crying.
These past few days Adele has tested and broke mommy. Yesterday was baaaddddddddd. To the point that I called Dustin in tears to come home. Lack of sleep and her crying all day, just broke me.
We have been trying to get her to sleep in her bassenette and the night before she cried and cried and cried and OH cried some more. SO NO SLEEP... and she fought sleep yesterday.. she refused to close her eyes, hence mommy crying in the end.

So last night she sleep between us, and that worked. She slept threw most of the night and woke up around 4:30am for a feeding.

So mommy and daddy got somewhat of a sleep.. so I feel normal... but what really is NORMAL now.

When time is getting close to saying good-bye

As I write this post I do not know what state my father is in. We recieved the call that he was back in the hospital, no biggy I thought he has been in and out, because of chemo anything like a cold can be deadly. But this call was different. My father suffered sever pain all over his body, that according to my mom looked at her in the eyes and begged her to stop it. I can not imagine what that was like for my mom, but I know it had to be devasting. Listening to Dustin talk to her on the phone, tears rolled down my face.

After getting him to the hosptial and after 2 hours of intense pain there, they finally gave him enough drugs to put him to sleep and take away the pain. My mom explain that the drugs they were using were so strong that he could stop breathing so she laid beside him and held place her head on his back and wrap her arms around and held his hands, and when she thought he was pain free and alseep she would try to pull away,but he would hang on to her. Tears pour down my face as my mom is telling me this story. Finally he was in a deep sleep and she was able to leave and go home.

As I look at my daughter and her big eyes, I know that I have to get her home to be with him. It is one of the last things on his wish list. The cancer as I have learned has pretty much spread threw his body. He is going for chemo on tuesday and perhaps radiation.

My father is a good man, who has a kind and wonderful heart. Who has always treated people with respect, no matter who they are. I hope that as my daughter grows older that I teach her the values that my father has taught me. I see my dad in her.

I am not looking forward to the day that I must say good-bye... I am not looking forward to opening Skype or MSN messanger and knowing that he will never sign onto his computer again, to never see his name pop up and have the words written out "Good morning from the great north".

from arms to bassenette

My little one is nearly 6 weeks old already. I still can't believe how time has been flying now. Well last night the husband decided that we should try and get her to sleep in her bassenette. For those of you who didn't know, she has been sleep in my arms either on the couch or in bed, and last night was the first night I was not there to comfort her. Before becoming a mom I would have thought "well it's about time" or " must have been nice to not have her with you", but to be honest I missed her. It was so hard on me. Did I have a good night sleep.. well actually I did and didn't. I found myself awake listening to her breath, and every sound she made I was up listening. When it was time to get up and feed her I did so, then placed her back in her bed, as much as I wanted to bring her to bed with me, I had to be consistant. KILLED ME. My husband doesn't completely understand, and that's ok.

As I write this, I am on my own. Husband took Adele so I can have some time to myself. Yet I miss her. Again pre-mommyhood "great time to yourself". I find I feel like I am running around with my head cut off. What do I do??? There are so many things that I can get done, but right now all I want is to sit and watch a movie, and cuddle my little one.

Wow how becoming a mom can really change you. I never thought I would see myself as a mom. Or be able to love somethign SO much, that you heart just feels empty when they are gone.

Just keep Swiming

The past couple of days I have been taking little one out for a walk, and this particular road has a hill to climb. I never realised how much strenght was taken from me. For those of you who hasn't seen me yet, I have lost alot of wait... WHAT you may ask, you just had a baby... I KNOW.. but I weight less then what I did when I got pregnant, and you can't even tell that I had a baby!

Anyways, my legs are really weak, and pushing a stroller up the hill was tough, really tough. Then I had to go down. never realised how much strenght one needed. My legs were shaking. But if I want to do a half marathon next year I will have to do this hill everyday, and get my strenght back.

So as Dorie from "Finding Nemo" says : Just keep swimming!!! Just keep swimming!!! What do we do is SWIM.
Words to live by!

Baby talk and SUD

Yesterday was my first Baby Talk. It's where a group of mothers and babies get together and chat about what is happening and how each of us is dealing with being a new mom, or get knowledge from more seasoned moms. I enjoyed myself and was nice to see that "your not alone". Adele was great, she slept threw the whole thing, well until the end. I weighted her and she is now 8 lb 7 ounces. I am hoping to gain some friendships with this group. Oddly enough I met a mother sitting beside me, and it's a smallllll world but she was from my home area. WHAT are the odds!

S.U.D. - oh man what a wonderful invention!! What is it you may ask.. well Dustin came up with it :
"Shut Up Device" aka a soother! For those of you who get my humour, I was laughing so hard when he said this.
So whenever you hear me talk about SUD you will understand. One lady in the group didn't get the humour in it, and thought I was a horrible mother for even calling something like that.

What I have learned!

When you become a mom, everyone tells you "sleep when you can". Easier said then done. But here are a few things I have learned in the past month.

1. Going for a car ride at 1am down to the ferries - there is NO traffic
2. Loud noises coming from your child's bottom - one hell of a full diaper
3. Use pink blankets when taking her out in public - any other color and people think she's a boy
4. Breastfeeding is good for the baby - yes best decision I made, but in the beginning you need and engineering degree to get them to latch on!!!
5. If breastfeeding get a breast pump - DON'T cheap out and get a cheap one, spend the money and get a GOOD ONE.
6. Diapers - thank god for the almighty disposable diapers and the diaper Genie!
7. Kids grow - They aren't kidding when they say they grow fast.
8. Sleeping arragments - how I miss my bed, but have gotten to know the couch oh so well!
9. breakfast, lunch and supper - two words "Lean Cuisine"
10. Shopping spree - GOING TO OLD NAVY FOR A NEW PAIR OF PANTS!