Bathtime

So Addy is getting bigger and so are her splashes! Bath-time is getting to be a lot of fun with her now.
Splish splash, and nothing can harm her as long as she has her trust facecloth to suck on!

Really would you trust this face with nitro glycerene ;-)

She is becoming more and more a little person. She will be 3 months tomorrow. WOW where is the time going! Already I see so much change and at time it makes me teary, knowing that I will never get that time back with her. As I craddle her in my arms as she sleeps, I think tomorrow she will a little different, and I try to burn the image of her sleeping in my head, so I don't forget in years to come. She is sooo precious, a sponge eager to see the world and I am eager to show it to her!

christmas time

Well it is that time of year, and this being Addy's first Christmas.. I thought this picture was perfect for today. She has no clue what is going on, just that mommy keeps putting this hat on her! Can you believe that she will be 3 months old next week. How time has flown. She is growing so much, and is changing almost everyday. There are mornings I will look at her and see a change. It's really unbelievable.

I have also discovered that to go out shopping anywhere, and to do anything, I need to tack on an extra hour. Why you may ask? Its from all the people stopping me to look at her! I think it's her eyes, she looks at you with her eyes and it's like she is looking into your soul, and then right on cue she smiles at you and she turns a man that looks like he hasn't smiled in years into a this mushy man, eager to see one more smile to make his day. What is it about Addy?

Back from winter wonderland

Well this is a short post, and will fill in more details, but after three weeks of being away, I have returned.
All I can say is -31 is freaken cold. I am just in the process of downloading my photos and will be adding them very soon.
These past few weeks have been an adventure for me, alot of learning and self healing.

It's good to be back in Victoria, but I have learnedd something more valuable, that there is no place like home and right now I miss home!

My little blueberry

Yesterday was a gorgeous day and we went down by the water. Of course MOM had her camera on hand, and snapped a few shots of baby, oh I did take picture of the ocean.. will show those later!!

I think yesterday some more brain nerves snapped into place. She was different, alert, and was smiling more then ever! It was amazing how just in a matter of 24 hours. So our walk was of mommy and daddy smiling the whole time, as our little bundle of joy watched the world for the first time. It was amazing how she just absorbed and watched. With those big blue eyes of her's. How we as adults forget how wonderful the world is, and looking at it threw her eyes really makes you open yours again.

Life and a poopy diaper

Life is passing by me at whirlwind speed that I just can't keep up with it. I am learning on how to cope with my life situation. How to manage my emotions, and keep my head held high, and most of the time I can do it. But there are days that I just can't and my walls cave in and I suddenly feel like I just can't stand anymore. How I would love a good stiff drink!!!!
They you are to learning from what is going on in ones life, and that there is a life lesson here. Well I am being blasted with life lessons and it's happening all at once. Has been since the end of July.

On a happier note, Adele is growing, and she is slowly becoming. She smiles more and more everyday.. but that evens out the crying that she does.

TODAY she pooped and peed ALLLLL over mommy. Diaper wasn't on properly. I was laughing so hard, not because of what happened, but how I realised what she had done. I was just sitting with her, and I was well very engorged in the breasts so I had been uhm leaking. I felt wet and though OMG she can't eat fast enough, then the uhm heavenly smell appeared, and I thought OHHH time to change her. She was making faces just a few moments ago. Then my little angel looks up at me SMILING.. I thought OHHHH how cute. THEN it I clued in... I was COVERED. That little diaper just could hold the explosion that occured. So her pj's are covered, mommy is covered, and she's smiling!!!! That's my girl!

Oh heavenly product called "SHOUT" please take the stains out. Oh and I forgott to mention that she also got a pillow as well!

So in the end of all this babbling what have I learnt ... THAT SHIT HAPPENS
Deal with it

For my mom

This blog is for you mom.
My mom and I don't meet eye to eye on the best of times, and we have our moments, but like my father my mom has taught me strong values. I have learned kindness and understand and she is the other half of who I am today. I don't think I really would be where I am if it wasn't for my mom. She has supported me threw so much, and I don't give her the credit she deserves. She wiped my tears when I was crying and rocked me to sleep when monsters were under my bed or in the closet.

I could never understand her love for me, when I was and still at times a reall shit! But after giving birth and looking into my daughter's eyes I see why now, that a mother's love in unconditional!!!!

I know that my mom is going threw something that I could never imagine would ever happen. It wasn't supposed to be this way. My father and her were to grow old together, sit in a rocking chair swing and yell at the kids in the street. But life throws wrenchs at you, forks in the road.

My mom is a strong woman. I should know I get my strenght from her.

WE as a family will get threw this, we will grow and be strong together. Mom, Dee, and I.

I love you mom, don't ever doubt that

Love Bean

Myths about Midwife

Well yesterday was my last midwife appointment, and it was sad to say goodbye. Aisia Salo was fantastic, and couldn't have asked for a better person to bring our daughter into this world.
Myths about midwives
1. Place of birth - my daughter was not born in a hippie van or in a barn. She was born in the hospital ( but one can choose to have a home birth)
2. Midwives are women from the outback - Midwives are highly educated people that require them to go threw and intense 4 year program.
3. Midwives aren't doctors - no they aren't but they have knowlege that are strictly for birth and taking care of baby. If they see a problem, they will send you to a doctor. They ARE your primary care giver, and take CARE of YOU and baby. Doctors have way to many things on their plate.
4.The best part of a midwife is that it was covered by the health care system.